Change for the Better

Towards the end of the last year I had a conversation with God and asked Him to free me from whatever negative spirit(s) that were surrounding me.  The year 2011 was a horrible year for me.  It was horrible because nothing went right at all from January 1 – Dec 31, I mean nothing.  During the last two weeks of December I called upon God to hear me and take the negative spirit(s) off of me and cloak me with his arms and love.  I didn’t realize at that moment that a change would occur, and would occur for the better.

Since the majority of my negativity came from and through the place I spent most of my days, I knew going back their would be trying, but I asked God to help me and give me ideas on how to handle it.  I wrote about 50 scriptures on Faith and Communications to aid me throughout my days at work.  Another one is at the beginning of the morning (as soon as I awake) to see the day for what it is and stay positive all day.  So far, this seems to be working and working in my favor.  I no longer have the disdain in my heart and soul.  I no longer felt like I needed to “fight” what was being presented to me all the time.  I’m learning to just “go with the flow” and let nothing harm me.  To that, I say “Lord, if it be Your Will, then so it is.”  Saying that makes me feel better and makes my day go by so much easier.

Food for Thought #2 – The “I Tried To Tell You or Told You So” Speech

In my short time on this Earth, I have come to embrace an enormous amount of things, but none moreso than this, especially when dealing with people:

“Sometimes it’s best to just sit back with pierced lips and let the person in front of you keep talking – let it roll.  When you allow other people to influence, or for lack of a better term, manipulate you and your decision-making process instead of listening to the people that know; sitting back watching you make a complete baffoon of yourself is the only option remaining.  At that appointed time is when you’ll get the “I tried to tell you (or I told you so), but you didn’t listen” speech from the people you should have been listening to in the first place.

Food for Thought #1: Were We Really Arguing About This?

There comes a point in time when we must begin to take responsibility for our actions, albeit written or verbal, we must take the responsibility.  Not just some responsibility, but take the responsibility of the entire role we played in whatever negative outbursts or actions that occurred.  Without uttering a word, I sit back and listen to people.  Not listening to be nosey, but listening to find out if I can hear and/or understand the underlying issue.  For the most part, when we are having a difference of opinion with someone or have an issue with that individual, we tend not to listen to each other when we’re talking because we are so busy trying to out-talk, out-boast, and out-complain each other.  Due to that, we can’t really get to the heart of the matter.  The funny thing is, when we finally get down to the bleeding heart, it’s really about nothing and it makes you want to just laugh and think to yourself “were we really arguing about this?”  Your answer, “Yeah, and how childish was that?”

It’s 2012!!

It’s a new year and time for a Better You and Me! This is not the year to look at the “what was”, but this is the year to look at the “what will be and/or what is”. As the Lord saith, “speak those things into existence as though they were”. This is the year to better ourselves. Don’t make resolutions, because they will be broken before the first week of the new year is over. If you’re really honest with yourself, you probably broke those resolutions before the end of New Years’ Day.

Let’s make this year the BEST year since, whenever. Keep it positive, keep it uplifting, keep it motivating, and definitely keep it moving.  Let’s get this party started!!

Uplifting Video – The 1st of Many To Come!

Caught a Thought Yesterday

Caught a thought yesterday.  It’s one of the many things I’ve always wanted to do – have my own business.  In talking to someone for several weeks, it dawned on me that it is the prime time to obtain secondary income to supplement what I have now.  Their is a lot of information available on starting your own business, but is any of it useful or usable?  I don’t think so.  Don’t get me wrong, I believe SOME information available is quite accurate, however trying to decipher the mess in between is tall job.  Even though I’ve gleaned through a lot of this information within the last couple of days, I did find some intriguing and helpful information.  So, I’m going to start my own business.  I’m also going to utilize that business to market what I consider to be my possible biggest seller – me.

It’s so many things I want to do (3 in particular), and I am going to do them.  Today I spent my day gleaning through website after website for start up business information, choosing what type of business (LLC, corporation, partnership, etc).  Also, I’ve been jotting down a lot of things as it relates to the product I want to create and move.  When I started doing this, a boost of energy just came out of no where and it gave me the adrenaline I needed to pull of drafting a drawing (as sorry as it was) of my product.  I began the route that most people take, but I’m just a little more involved in the detailed writing portion moreso than what time others have put into their business plan.  Ensuring that the business plan is the way I want it – then it becomes a living, breathing, reviewable, revisable document.

I know this is going to be hard doing this by myself, but I am definitely up for the challenge.  It’s time for the regular people to get a slice of the pie that others are getting.

Yesterday’s Chapter is Officially Finished

This past weekend I learned a very difficult lesson in people, more specifically individuals that you make important in your life.  I can’t remember this quote fully, but those of you who have read it or even heard know what I’m speaking of.  I should have never made someone a priority in my life that makes me an option in theirs.  It hurts to know that I was put at the end of someone’s concern and not even made an important part of their life, even though they talked a good game and told me I was extremely important.

Literally I have wasted 2 years of my life on this person, but my problem is I kept giving this person chance after chance.  I admit it, it’s somewhat my fault.  I have acknowledged my faults and take ownership of it, but no one deserves to be treated like I have by this person and no one else for that matter.  I know their are thousands of other people that have dealt with far more problems with situations such as this and worse, but this one for me is one of the hardest things I had to deal with, especially when it is someone that had my heart and I truly cared for.

Learning and living life is hard enough, but to feel unsupported and unimportant by someone you thought held you in a higher regard is even more hard to deal with, but I’m dealing with it.  Usually I don’t write about my personal thoughts and hardships, but this one hurts.  It hurts now as I type this, but I’m getting through it.  As I always state, writing is my therapy and it gets me through.

Well, as I stated in my Facebook post yesterday afternoon, this chapter of my life is officially finished, and it’s time to move on.